It was my 20th birthday only three days ago, marking a new year full of uncertainty and mystery. Although 20 might sound young, I still can’t believe I’ve been alive for that long. That being said, so much has happened in my life that it makes sense for all that craziness to be spread over 20 full years.
I always find myself wondering what I’ll be doing at this exact time next year. Will I still be the same person? Will I even be alive? Because really, who knows what my life will be like a full year from now? Sometimes it kills me to not know. Sometimes I feel as though I’m being kept in the dark about my own life, someone called Life is out there planning things to come for me but I won’t know about them until they happen. It seems really unfair.
I don’t know what I want to happen in between being 20 and turning 21 next year. Well, that’s not entirely true. There are a couple of things I would really like to happen but the real question is knowing if they will come true or not. I hope with all my heart that they do but I won’t be surprised if they stay hidden for yet another exhausting year of my life. But my wishful thinking has decided the next year will be full of amazing, beautiful things that will lead to me to feel immensely happy and content. How long will that last for? No one knows…it’s one of the biggest uncertainties of life.
Lucy Rebecca x