I want you to hold me whenever I feel scared and tell me that everything will be okay. I want you to stay with me on all those nights that I’m tossing and turning, losing precious sleep as the hours pass by until daylight creeps through the clouds. I want you to ask me every day if you can see me, and before you hear back you’ll already be thinking of something amazing we could do together that day.
I want you to wrap your arms around me and hold me tight, kissing me passionately when you see me, even if it’s only been a couple of days since we last saw each other. I want you to hold my hand as we walk around together and offer to carry my small weight when I feel tired and need a rest.
I want you to ask me over for dinner and invite me to meet your family. I want to have the chance for them to get to know me and for them to understand why we’re good for each other. I want you to show me your bedroom and all the things that represent you. I want to feel that I’m truly getting to know you by seeing where you’re from and the room you go home to every day.
I want you to value occasions like Valentine’s Day, buying me a beautiful bouquet of red roses and a box of my favourite chocolates along with an affectionate kiss and cuddle. I want you to promise we’ll spend the whole day together and I want to know that you’ll try to make it memorable day for me in any way you can. I want you to kiss me under the mistletoe on Christmas Eve each year and play with the pompom on the top of our matching red Santa hats. I want to be the first to say happy birthday to you when you become a year older and the first to see you in person, even before your closest friends.
I want you to listen to me and trust me when I say something important like I love you. I want you to feel confident that we have something special and I want to know you won’t turn your back on me. I want you to be careful with my vulnerable heart and keep it safe from heartbreak and heartache. I want you to protect me and look after me in my weakest moments.
I want you to feel that you can tell me anything, knowing that I would never judge you. I want you to give me the chance to get to know you on a really significant and meaningful level, even if that means learning to open your currently closed heart to me. I want you to allow me to be where nowhere else has been before because you trust me with your heart. I want you to trust that I would never hurt you because you mean so much to me. I want you to believe me when I tell you how special, unique and different you are and always know that that’s exactly what I love about you – you’re not like anyone else. I want us to be close with each other physically, emotionally and intimately.
I want you to say that you love me. I want you to be fearless and say those three little words, knowing it’s important to tell me how you feel. I want you to be willing to take the chance of finding out what an amazing relationship we could have together. I want you to believe that as long as we have each other we can get through anything that stands in our way. I want you to be as passionate as me about the idea of a relationship and have that determination for it to succeed, never once thinking we should give up just because we’ve hit a few speedbumps.
There’s so many things I want…all I can do is hope that one day it will come true.
Lucy Rebecca x