You’re toxic. I can’t breathe when I’m around you; the air becomes so incredibly polluted. You bring negativity and destruction into my life and you watch as they turn my world upside down. You bring my comfortable, secure state into a world full of doubts, tears, misery and suffering.
The world was once white, full of beautiful light colours reflecting fragments of a rainbow. Birds were chirping and the sun was out, warming everyone in its warm rays of sunlight. It was such a happy place for me.
Then you crept into my life like a dark storm, rolling across the sky while you wait for the perfect moment to release a storm full of rain, thunder and lightning. And like a storm, the sky became dark and everything under it became dull and grey. The things I used to see were beginning to lose their colour, almost as if it was slowly being drained away until it looked miserable. My whole word became this shade of misery.
You chose the perfect time to release the storm that rained down on me, not daring to stop until I was completely soaked. You wanted me to feel just as miserable as you and for a while it worked. You drew the tears out of my eyes, insecurities and doubt out of my heart. You chose to leave me this way.
You’re toxic and I can’t breathe.
Lucy Rebecca x