It’s nearly midnight and I should be asleep. I should be in a completely different world full of fantasies, bright colours and fast-paced excitement. I should be so deep in a euphoric dream-like state that I’m completely oblivious to reality and my waking life. I feel like I’m living in two worlds: the real one and the one […]
Before you hurt me, I was fine. I was happy. I had so much self-confidence and I was certain in the decisions I made. I didn’t second guess myself or what I was doing. My mind wasn’t full of doubt every second of the day. I wasn’t insecure.
How many times have you heard the phrase ‘fear of intimacy’? Personally I can’t count the amount of times I’ve heard this or read about this somewhere, which leads me to believe that it’s more common than you might think. Maybe, even, at some point in life we will all have a fear of intimacy […]
What does it really take to move on? I mean moving on from someone that you’ve got a lot of history with, someone who you came to truly care for and respect and who meant a lot to you. Someone that you used to spend so much time with and over that time, grew close […]
Yesterday I wrote you a six page letter. It was a spontaneous idea, but I been thinking about you so much for the last few weeks that it didn’t surprise me that I eventually came to do it. Whether or not I decided to post that letter, though, was another matter. I thought about you […]
If we, as humans, are told that regrets and mistakes are both a major (and unavoidable) part of life, why is it that we try to hard to avoid the unavoidable? This is the question that has been on my mind a lot recently. As someone who is actively trying to make right choices for […]
Social media may be great for a lot of reasons, but there is one thing that I can’t forgive it for: making it so easy – too easy – for us to take the easy way out of matters that we need to face. This is a pattern which I’m increasingly becoming aware of and […]
Can’t believe this is my first blog post of 2018! A part of me is excited just to have made it this far; every year I feel like I get so caught up in everything that’s going on that I think surely I’m not going to make it to the end.
One month to go until the beginning of a new year! I couldn’t be more happy than to start afresh and leave the past in the past, quite frankly. Although I’ve had a pretty good year on the whole, there are of course a few things which I would like to leave behind and prefer […]
I know I’ve talked about this before, probably a while ago now, but since it is something that’s still happening and affecting me I wanted to expand on it. For as long as I can remember I’ve had these terrible, vivid nightmares that I can’t seem to forget no matter how much I try. I […]